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Wednesday, 25 February 2009

are you satisfied with yourself now? Emptiness swallows this town

Just a short entry today...
I couldn't stop it if I tried
the same old heart beat
fills the emptiness I have inside

When you, when you forget your name
When old faces all look the same

I get the feeling that I'm
Stranded in the wrong time
Where life is just a lyric and love is just a rhyme.

Times goes by at such a pace
It's funny how it's easy to forget his face
You hide the cracks, the facts will find you
Turn your back and leave the lonely days behind you

Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold

Friday, 02 January 2009

Hey, you surround me like a blanket in my bed;

Wow, It's sure bin a while. I just didn't really have any motivation to do this stuff.
but......Im back :)
~~-Alyssa~~
And if i had something to say to you i'd whisper it softly
Kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me
Shiver on your roof and see your face lit by starlight
Hold you through the night and watch that colorado sunrise.

I've got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that i've made
And if you try to take that from me well I'll never be the same trainwreck that I am.

It happened then, it happens now.
He lets you in, he lets you down.
And it feels like we can't get out
And it feels like hell.

When I just sit and talk and laugh and smoke another cigarette, sometimes it's easy to sit back and think of how things used to be. Sometimes it's easy to sit back and never think at all.

you know, i just cant help myself. i wish to believe, but belief is a graveyard. may this light never see morning, as finally one will not. maybe you're the one that's overrated.

It's so easy to get lost in constantly having to present
whatever face you believe a person wants to see,
rather than your own.

i am sitting on the clouds
i got smoke coming from my seat
i can play basketball with the moon
i got the whole world at my feet.

We're just dancing, we're just hugging,
Singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
On the sleeve of how it used to be.

all your friends seem like enemies
when you're broken down and empty

there's nothing like the deep breaths after laughing that hard. nothing like a sore stomach for the right reasons.
+ Perks of Being A Wallflower

And I'm running in circles and I'm spinning around
I'm drinking and smoking and crashing straight down
Every thing is spinning and losing all sense.
Just a couple more shots so I won't lose this,
So I won't remember anymore.

And for an instant, I can't stand myself.
Because I know you never thought
about me half as much as I thought about you.
Because I can't stop thinking about you.
I can't get you out of my head;
from under my skin.

I don't like you but I love you
seems that i'm always thinking of you
oh, you treat me badly, i love you madly,
you really got a hold on me
i don't want you
but i need you
Don't wanna kiss you but I need to

Couldn't get worked up about anything,
We could plan things out but we'll be tired of each
other so soon. We got bored so we'd do drugs
and wait for things. Sometimes it feels nice to give in.

It's the way you thrill me, then pull away.
The way you seem to kill me a little more each day.
And it's what you're thinking in your twisted mind,
The way your body trembles when it's next to mine.

You are a fuck up and you'll never know it
Because people believe everything you say
And I don't understand because it's bullshit.
Just like the day that I met you, you didn't say a word. But I still knew you were lying straight through your teeth. Did you think you would prove the whole world wrong? Everything's never enough. Baby you’re so, well you're just too much. Everything's never enough

And now for some pictures of me that I edited once again :)
ALYSSA -

Monday, 01 December 2008

one big make it or break it

I could spend my lifetime gettin' high,
Never wantin' to live in a suit and tie.
Most of us are just livin' a lie
Trying to get fucked up every night.

so, hi. this is me. a human being, in all of my frailty.
laying myself out for you, that we might walk through this beautiful,
awful, strange thing we call life, together

This place sucks. But I just worry that one day we're gonna look back
at high school and wish we'd done something different.

Take your time, trust in me.
And you will find infinity
++ infinity 2008 - Guru Josh Project